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There are 'moments when the mind, particularly of' young people, is located so that each instance of just enough to get anything that has an appearance of goodness and sacrifice: as a just bloomed flower, gently gives way on its fragile stalk, ready to give its fragrance to prim'aria breaths that point around. These moments, which should be admired by others with respect so, are they just concerned that the cunning spy carefully, and takes flight for a tie that will not look. In that letter
slightly, Prince *** immediately saw the crack open and consistent with its ancient sights. Sent word that in Gertrude came from him, and waiting, he prepared to beat the iron while it was hot. Gertrude appeared, and, without raising his eyes to face his father, he threw himself on his knees before him, and had just breath to say - forgive me! - He made a sign that rises, but with a little item that may hearten you, replied that forgiveness was not enough to wish or ask, what that was too easy and too natural to anyone who is found guilty, and the theme punishment, that sum had to deserve it. Gertrude asked, softly and trembling, what he should do. The Prince (no holding him in the heart of this moment the title of father) did not answer directly, but began to talk at length about the failure of Gertrude: and those words fizz on the soul of the poor, like the flow of a rough hand upon a wound. He continued by saying that even if ... If ever ... that he had any intention of putting it in the first century, she had taken an insurmountable obstacle hours, as a knight of honor, as he was he would never be enough for the spirit of giving to a gentleman who had a young lady given such a test himself. The poor listener was annihilated: the prince then, softened by degrees his voice and words, but went on to say that there was any foul remedy and mercy, that his was one of those for which the remedy is clearly indicated : that she had to see, in this sad accident, as a notice that the life of the world was too full of danger for her ...
- Ah yes! - Gertrude cried, shaken with fear, prepared by the shame, and move at that point by a snapshot tenderness.
- Ah! you understand you too - shooting Prince incontinent. - Well, there was no talk of the past: everything is deleted. You took the only honorable party, convenient, which will remain, but because you've got a good heart, and with good manner, it is up to welcome me to let you succeed in every way: it's my turn to make back all the advantage and all the credit upon you. I'll take care -. So saying, he rang a bell that was on the table, and the servant who entered, he said - the princess and the young prince suffered -. It then continued with Gertrude: - I want them now part of my consolation, I want everybody to start immediately to treat them rightly. You have experienced part of the strict father, but henceforth will experience all the loving father.
At these words, she was left as stunned. Now as never looked back so that any had escaped, he could have meant so much, now trying to catch him if there was a way of shrinking the way, but the prince seemed so full of persuasion, his joy so jealous, so the benign condition, Gertrude did not dare utter a word that might disturb them the least.
After a few moments, the two were called, and seeing there Gertrude looked at her face, uncertain and astonished. But the prince, with a happy, loving demeanor, like that prescribed them, - here, - he said - the lost sheep: and this is the last word recall sad memories. Here is the consolation of the family. Gertrude has no need of advice, what we desired for her sake, he wanted her own accord. It is determined, made me understand that is determined ... - At this step, he lifted it to his father a look of terror and supplication, as to ask him to suspend, but he went on frankly - that is determined to take the veil.
- Brava! good! - Exclaimed with one voice, the mother and child, and one after the other abbracciaron Gertrude; this welcome which he received with tears, which were interpreted to tears of consolation. The prince then spread to explain what would render a happy and wonderful for his daughter's fate. He spoke of the distinctions in goderebbe in the monastery and in the country, that there would be like a princess, as the representative of the family that as soon as age would permit, would be raised to the first dignity, and, meanwhile, is not subject that name. The princess and the prince renewed every moment, congratulations and applause: Gertrude was as dominated by a dream.
- then worthwhile to fix the day, to go to Monza, to make the request to the abbess, - Said the prince. - How to be happy! I can tell you that the monastery will be able to assess the honor Gertrude ago. Indeed ... why do not we go now? Gertrude gladly take a little 'air.
- Let us go, - said the princess.
- I want to give orders, - said the prince.
- Ma .. - Gertrude uttered softly.
- Piano, piano, - continued the prince - let her decide, perhaps today does not feel quite ready, and would like more delay until tomorrow. Say that you want to go today or tomorrow?
- Tomorrow - said, his voice weak, Gertrude, which still seemed to have something, take some 'time.
- Tomorrow, - the prince said solemnly: - Decided that we go tomorrow. Meanwhile, I go by the vicar of the nuns, to fix a day for the examination -. With this, the prince went out and did it really (was not that little condescension) from the vicar said, and planned that there would in two days.
In the rest of that day, she did not have a minute of good. He wanted to rest the soul of many emotions, letting, so to speak, to clarify his thoughts, to account to herself of what she had done, what remained to be done, knowing what he wanted, a slow time that machine that just started, did so precipitously, but there was no way. The occupations followed one another without interruption, intertwine with each other. Soon after the party prince, the princess was taken to the toilet, to be under his direction, combed and covered by his housekeeper. He was not yet finished to give the last hand, that they were warned that it was on the table. Gertrude passed between agl'inchini the servants, who alluded to congratulate him for healing, and found some close relatives, who had been invited in haste to honor them, and to rejoice with her de 'two happy events, the recovered health, vocation and explained.
The bride (this was the young chiamavan monacande, and Gertrude, as it appeared, was widely greeted with that name), the bride had to say and do in response to 'the fioccavan compliments from all sides. He felt good that each of his responses, as acceptance and confirmation, but how to respond differently? Shortly thereafter left the table, it was time the trot. Gertrude entered the carriage with her mother and two uncles who had been at dinner. After a usual round, succeeded to the Marina Road, then through the space occupied by the park hours, and was the place where the gentlemen were in a carriage to recreate the labors of the day. The uncles also spoke to Gertrude, as the convenience brought in that day, and one of them, which seemed that most of the other, he knew every person, every coach, every livery, and each time had something to say about the that Mr and Mrs at others, she turned to her suddenly, and said - ah sly! you give a kick to all this nonsense, you're a dirittona; planted negl'impicci us poor worldly, you retire to make a happy life, and go to heaven in a chariot.
Later on, he returned home and the servants, with torches coming down quickly, warned that many visits were waiting. The item ran, and relatives and friends were doing their duty. Ever entered the hall of the conversation. The bride was its idol, the sport, the victim. Everyone wanted her for himself, who was to promise sweet, who promised visits, the speaker of the mother that her cousin, who's mother that her other friend, who praised the heavens in Monza, who talked with great taste, the great figure that she would have done. Others, that they had not yet been able to get close to Gertrude so besieged, they were watching an opportunity to come forward, and felt some remorse, since they had not done their homework. Gradually, the company s'andò fading, if all went off without remorse, and she was left alone co 'parents and brother.
- Finally, - said the prince, - I had the consolation of seeing my daughter treated by her par. But we must confess that she has been brought just fine, and showed that not to be hanged in the first figure, and upholding the dignity of the family.
We dined in a hurry to retire immediately, and be ready early the next morning. Gertrude
saddened, annoyed and at the same time, a little 'inflated by all this' ceremony, at that point he remembered what he had suffered from his captor, and, seeing his father so willing to please her in everything, save a What, he wanted to take advantage dell'auge where he was, at least to quell the passions that tormented her. Then showed a great reluctance to be with her, complaining strongly of his manners.
- What! - Said the prince - hath disrespected her! Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll wash the head as he goes. Leave it to me, that I know who you are, and who you are. And anyway, a daughter of which I am happy not to see each other around a person who displease -. So saying, he called another woman, and ordered her to serve Gertrude, which in the meantime, chewing and savoring the satisfaction that he had received, was surprised to find so little juice, in comparison to the desire that had had none. What, even against his will, took possession of all his soul, was the sentiment of 'great progress he had made that day on the road of the cloister, the thought that it would take hours to withdraw from much more strength and determination to what would be a matter of days before, and yet he had not heard of you. The woman who went to
accompany her in the room, was an old house, was already the ruler of the prince, who had just been released by the band, and pulled up through adolescence, and in which he had pinned all his complacency, his hopes, his glory. It was pleased with the decision made on that day, as of his own fortune, and Gertrude, for ultimate fun, had to suck his congratulations, praise, advice of the old, and hear about some of his aunts and great-aunts, who s'eran are very happy to be nuns, because, being in that house, they had always enjoyed the first honors, they had always managed to hold out a paw, and from their parlor, had obtained the greatest things that ladies in their rooms, There were not been able to get there. He spoke of the visits which he received one day later, Mr. Prince would be with his wife, who must certainly have a great Signoroni, and then, not only the monastery, but the whole country would be in motion. The old woman had spoken while undressed Gertrude, when Gertrude was in bed, he spoke again, that Gertrude was sleeping. Youth and fatigue were the strongest de 'thoughts. Sleep was labored, muddy, full of dreams painful, but that was not broken by the screaming voice of old, who came to wake her, because they prepare for the trip to Monza.
- Come on, come on, lady bride: it's daylight, and before it is dressed and combed, it will take at least one hour. The princess lady is getting dressed, and they woke up four hours earlier than usual. Mr. Prince has already fallen to the teams, then came back up, and is about to leave when the order is. As lively as a hare, that little devil, but! has been so since childhood, and I can say that I took him in her arms. So, when ready, do not expect it, because, although it is the best pasta in the world, grew impatient, and then screaming. Poor thing! we must pity: it is his natural and then this time would also have a little 'reason, why trouble yourself about her. Woe to those who touch him in those 'moments! has no regard for anyone, except for Mr. Prince. But finally not above saying that Mr. Prince, and one day, Mr. Prince will be him later that it is possible, though. Lesta, quick, young lady! Because I look so magical? By now it should be out of the kennel.
image of the prince impatiently, all other thoughts had crowded to the awakened mind of Gertrude, you levaron once, like a flock of sparrows at the appearance of the kite. He obeyed, dressed in a hurry, left comb, and appeared in the hall, where his parents and brother were gathered. Was made to sit upon a chair with armrests, and was brought a cup of hot chocolate: which, in this' time, what was already among the Romans As to the virile.
When they came to warn that it was attacked, the prince took his daughter aside, and said: - Come, Gertrude, you have done yesterday honor you today, you have to overcome it. This is to make a formal appearance in the monastery and in the country where you are destined to be the first figure. I'll wait ... - It goes without saying that the prince had sent a notice to the abbess, the day before. - I'll wait, and all eyes will be upon you. Dignity and aplomb. The abbess asks you what you want: it is a formality. Can you answer that ask to be allowed to wear the dress in that monastery, where you been so lovingly brought up, where you have received so many subtleties: it is the truth. Say those few words, with a loose do: not to say that s'avesse v'hanno spigot, and you do not know about you. The good mothers know nothing of what happened: it's a secret that should remain buried in the family, and therefore do not face a contrite and doubtful, that could give some suspicion. Let's see which blood exits: Manor, a modest, but remember that in that place, out of the family, there will be no one above you.
Without waiting for an answer, the prince moved, Gertrude, the princess and the prince followed him, all went down the stairs, and they rode in a carriage. Gl'impicci and the troubles of the world, and the blessed life of the cloister, mainly for young blood noble, were the topic of conversation during the trip. Towards the end of the road, Prince renewed his instructions to his daughter, and several times repeated the formula of the response. Upon entering in Monza, she felt sad at heart, but his attention was drawn to a moment of gentlemen who do not know what, without stopping the train, I do not know what they recited compliment. Resuming our journey, went almost pitch to the monastery, between the eyes of 'the curious, who came from all over the street. To stop the carriage, in front of those walls, in front of that door, my heart clung more to Gertrude. He got down between two wings of the people, the servants were to stand back. All those eyes him to the poor required to study its behavior continuously, but more than all those together, the two kept in suggezione the father, 'which it, although he had so much fear, could not let her pay for each time. And he ruled his eyes and moves his face, as by invisible reins. Through the first courtyard, ever entered another, and there you saw the door of the cloister, all wide open and occupied by nuns. In the front row, surrounded by old abbess, and behind, other nuns in bulk, some on tiptoes, standing above converse in the last benches. Also were seen here and there some little eyes sparkle in the air, check a few little face between the habits: They were the most right, and the most courageous among the boarders, who, thrusting and penetrating between monks and nuns, were able to get a bit 'of hole, also to see something. Cheers from the crowd came out, many could be seen wiggling arms as a sign of welcome and joy. They came to the door, Gertrude found himself face to face with the Mother Abbess. After the first compliment, that, a way between the joyful and solemn, he asked what he wanted in that place, where there were those who could deny anything.
- I'm here ..., - Gertrude began, but at the point of uttering the words that were almost irrevocably decider of his fate, he hesitated a moment, and stood with eyes fixed on the crowd that stood before him. He saw, at that time, one of his known companions, who looked with an air of compassion and mischief together, and seemed to say: Ah! the waterfall is a good girl. The sight, awakening more vivid in his mind all the old feelings, returned a little 'of what little ancient courage, and was already looking for the answer any different from that which had been dictated, when looked up to father's face, as if to experiment with his forces, he saw so dark on that anxiety, impatience so menacing, that firm out of fear, with the same readiness that would have taken the flight before a terrible subject, he continued: - I am here to ask to be allowed to wear the religious habit in this convent, where I was raised so lovingly -. The abbess replied immediately that she minded much, in such an occasion, that the rules did not enable it to give an immediate reply, which was to be shared by the votes of the sisters, and which was to precede the license of 'superiors. But Gertrude, knowing that s'avevan feelings for her in that place, he could foresee with certainty what would that answer, and that while no rule forbidding the abbess and nuns to demonstrate that they felt the consolation of that request. He got the rig then a confused and congratulatory cheers of. They were just great gloves full of sweets, which they were submitted first to the bride, and after his relatives. While some nuns were to rubarsela, and other complimentavan the mother, the other prince, the abbess did pray that the prince would be grateful to the parlor, where he was waiting. She was accompanied by two old, and when she saw him appear, - Mr. Prince, - he said - to obey the rules ... necessary to fulfill a formality, although in this case ... well I must tell you ... that, whenever a child asks to be allowed to wear the dress, ... the superior, which I am unworthy ... and duty to warn parents ... that if, by chance ... force the wishes of his daughter, would incur excommunication. Excuse me ...
- Fine, fine, Reverend Mother. Lodo its accuracy: it is just too ... But you can not doubt ... - Oh! think, Mr. Prince, ... I spoke to specific obligation ... the rest ...
- Sure, sure, Mother Superior.
bartered these few words, the partners bowed to each other, and parted, as if to weigh them both to remain there butt, and went to meet each of his company, one out, the other in the threshold cloistered. Resulted in a bit 'of other chatter - Oh way, - said the prince - Gertrude will soon be able to enjoy the company of his leisurely these mothers. For now we have enough inconvenience -. So saying, he bowed, and the family moved with him, they renewed their compliments, and we left.
Gertrude, in return, did not want to talk too much. Frightened of the step she took, ashamed of his worthlessness, aggravated against others and against himself, was a sad account of the occasion, which remained still say no, weak and confused, and promised to herself that in this , or that, or into that, it would be right and stronger. With all these thoughts, however, had not ceased at all the terror of that scowl of his father, so that, when given to him in passing at a glance, he could clarify that on the face of it there was no trace of anger, when indeed saw that it showed very satisfied with her, it seemed a good thing, and was, for a moment, overjoyed.
When you arrive, you have to get dressed and rilisciarsi, then dinner, then a few visits, then the trot, then the conversation, then dinner. On the end of this, the prince fielded another matter, the choice of sponsor. So he called a lady, who, prayed by the 'parents, and became guardian of the young monacanda Commons, the time between the request and entratura in the monastery; time was spent in visiting the churches, public buildings, conversations, villas, shrines all things, in short, the most notable of the city and de 'contours, so young, before uttering Rate irrevocable, saw a good thing they gave a kick. - We must think of a godmother, - said the prince - because tomorrow will be the vicar of the nuns, the formalities for examination, and soon after, she will be given in chapter, to be accepted by parent -. In saying this, he had turned to the princess, and this, thinking it was an invitation to propose, began: - there would be ... - The prince interrupted: - No, no, lady princess: the godmother must first please the bride, and although the universal use gives the choice to relatives, as well as Gertrude's opinion, much good sense, good that it deserves make an exception for you -. And here, turning to Gertrude, in act of those who preach a singular grace, he continued: - each of the ladies who've found this evening to talk, has what is required to be godmother of a daughter of our house there is none, I think, not is honored to keep the preference: take your pick.
Gertrude could see that this choice was to give a new consensus, but the proposal was made with such apparatus, that the refusal, as it was humble, he could seem contempt, or at least whim and affectation. He therefore also that step, and named the lady who, on that evening, she went over to genius that is the one that had more strokes, which had the most praised, those who had dealt with manners family, loving and caring, that it 'the first moments of knowledge, contraffanno an old friendship. - Good choice, - said the prince, who wanted and expected exactly that. Was art or event, as had happened when the players make you Bussolotti before one's eyes a bunch of cards, you said that you think one, and he then guess the ve, but has slid in a manner that you see alone. That lady was so Gertrude around all night, had occupied so much of himself, that this would need an effort of imagination to think of another. Many caring and then they were not without reason: the lady had a long time, set his sights on the young prince, to make his son: so related things of that house as his own, and it was quite natural that to be interested by that dear Gertrude, no less de 'their next of kin.
The next day, she awoke with the thought that the examiner was to come, and while he was chewing if he could seize the opportunity so decisive, to go back, and in what manner, the prince sent for. - Come, my child, - he said: - so far, you've flow very well: it is now necessary to crown the work. All that has been done so far has been done to your approval. If at this time, I was born some doubt, some pentimentuccio, shackles of youth, you had to explain, but the point at which things are now, is not the time to girls. An honest man who is to come this morning, will make one hundred questions about your vocation, and if you become a nun of your will, and why and for how, and what not? If you hesitated in responding, will keep you on the line who knows what. Un'uggia would be a torment for you, but it may be another even more serious trouble. After all public demonstrations that are made, even the slightest hesitation that we saw in you, would jeopardize my honor, I believe that I could take your own weight to a firm resolution, which had precipitated the matter, which I ... I know I? In this case, I find it necessary to choose between painful two parties: either let the world form a sad concept of my conduct: a party that absolutely can not stand with what I owe to myself. O reveal the real reason for your termination e. .. - But here, seeing that Gertrude had become scarlet, which is gonfiavan eyes, and his face twitched, like the leaves of a flower, nell'afa before the storm broke off that discourse, and, looking serene, continued: - gone, gone, everything depends on you, by your good opinion. So much that had none, and you are not girl to spoil the end of a thing done well, but I had to foresee all the cases. Do not talk about it anymore, and restiam agree that you will answer frankly, in a manner not to be born in doubt head of an honest man. So you too will be out soon -. And here, after some suggested answer to the most likely came in the usual discourse of sweetness and de 'pleasures that were prepared to Gertrude in the monastery, and stayed in that, until a servant came to announce the vicar. The prince quickly renewed warnings most important, and left his daughter alone with him, as it was prescribed.
A good man was a bit 'of opinion that Gertrude had already made a great vocation to the cloister, because it had said the prince, when he was to invite him. It is true that the good priest, who knew that the suspicion was one of the virtues longer needed in its ufizio had to go slowly in the maximum to believe such protests, and to guard against the concerns, but rarely is that the words of an affirmative and reliable person in authority, in any genre, not tinged with the color of their mind of the listener. After the first
compliments, - Miss, - he said - I come to play the part of the devil come to question what, in her plea she has taken for granted, I come to them before the eyes of the difficulties, and to determine whether the well was considered. It pleased me to do some questioning.
- Say well, - said Gertrude.
The good priest then began to question in the form prescribed by rules. - She feels in her heart, a free, spontaneous resolution to become a nun? Have not been used threats or flattery? He has not made use of any authority, to persuade her to this? Talk about no respect, and sincerity, a man whose duty it is to know his true desire to prevent that violence will not be used in any way.
The real answer to a question that appeared at once to the mind of Gertrude, with evidence terrible. To give that answer, we had come to an explanation, saying that she had been threatened, tell a story ... The unfortunate shunned frightened by this idea, quickly tried another answer, he found one who could rescue the early and certainly from that punishment, the more contrary to the truth. - I make a nun, - he said, hiding his emotion, - I make a nun, my genius, freely.
- how long was born Codest thought? - Asked, the good priest.
- I've always had - said Gertrude, became, after that first step, more honest to lie against itself.
- What is the main reason that causes it to become a nun?
The good priest did not know what a terrible touch button, and Gertrude became a great strength not to let it shine on your face the effect it produces in those words. - The reason - he said - is to serve God, and to escape the dangers of the world.
- It would not be some disgust? some ... Excuse me ... whim? At times, one can cause momentary impression that it seems as devas endure forever, and then when the cause ceases, and the mood is changed, then ...
- No, no, - Gertrude hastily replied: - the reason is what I said.
The vicar, to more fully fulfill its obligation, which for the conviction that we needed it, persisted with the questions, but Gertrude was determined to deceive. Beyond the horror that was causing the thought of rendering conscious of his weakness that serious and honest priest, who seemed so far away from the suspicion that something of her, the poor girl thought even then he could well prevent the nun did, but there ended his authority above her, and her protection. Party that was, it would be alone with the prince. And then whatever he had to suffer in that house, the good priest n'avrebbe not heard anything, or knowing, with all its good intentions, could not help but feel compassion for her, the compassion quiet and measured, that in general harmony, as you please, who has given cause or excuse the evil that they do. The examiner was tired of the first interview, that the misfortune of lying: and, hearing those answers always comply, and have no reason to doubt their sincerity, changed his last speech, congratulated her and asked, in a way , sorry for being late so much to make this his duty, he added that he believed most likely to confirm the good intention, and resigned.
through the halls to get out, Fell in the prince, who thought that went there by chance, and he also congratulated the good dispositions in which he had found his daughter. The prince had been until then suspended in a very painful: in the news, breathed, and forgetting his usual gravity, he went almost running by Gertrude filled her with praises, caresses and promises, with a heartfelt joy, with a largely sincere tenderness: this fact is this jumble of the human heart. We do not follow
Gertrude continued in that round of shows and entertainment. And not even describe, in detail and to order, the feelings of his soul in all that time: it would be a story of pain and fluctuations, too boring and too similar to what has been said. The pleasantness of 'places, the variety of objects, but what fun that was in the running here and there in the open air, the more hateful rendevan the idea of \u200b\u200bthe place where the end is disassembled for the last time, for forever. More poignant still was the impression he received in conversations and holidays. The sight of the wives to whom you gave this title in the most obvious and most-used, envy causes him a gnawing intolerable, and sometimes the appearance of some other character made her opinion that, to feeling that way, would be the height of all happiness. Sometimes the pump de 'palaces, the magnificence of the decorations, the swarm and the joyful noise of the parties, informed the rapture, the ardor of a joyous life, who promised herself to retract, to suffer everything rather than return to 'shadow of the cloister cold and dead. But all the resolutions rested faded to address many of the difficulties, the only fixed his eyes on his face to the prince. Sometimes even the thought of having to abandon forever this' enjoyment, made him Arnar and painful that little essay, like the thirsty looks sick with anger, defiance and almost Push back with the spoon of water that the doctor the grant effort. Meanwhile the vicar of the nuns had issued the necessary certificate, and was licensed to keep the chapter for the acceptance of Gertrude. The chapter was held; concurred, was to be expected, two-thirds of 'secret votes that were required by' regulations, and Gertrude was accepted. She herself, tired of that long agony, then asked to enter as fast as possible, in the monastery. There was no doubt who would curb such impatience. It was therefore made his will, and, pompously conducted at the monastery, took the habit. After twelve months of the novitiate, full of remorse and repent, he found himself at the profession, in which it agreed that at the time, or say not a stranger, more unexpected, more outrageous than ever, or repeat a so many times said, repeated it, and was a nun for good.
is one of the unique and incommunicable power of the Christian religion, the ability to guide and comfort anyone in any situation in any term, recourse to it. If the past is no remedy, it prescribes, the administration by light and force to implement it, whatever the cost, if there is, it gives a way to really and in effect, what is said in proverb, a virtue of necessity. Teaches wisdom to continue with what has been done to lightness; bend the mind with a propensity to embrace this which was imposed by the arrogance, and gives a choice that was reckless, but that it is irrevocable, all holiness, all the wisdom, but let's face it frankly, all the joys of their vocation. It is a road so that, on any labyrinth, from any precipice, the man understood it, and you take a step, can henceforth walk with confidence and good will, and comes gladly to a happy ending. By this means, she could have been a nun holy and happy, however it had become. But the unhappy struggling under the yoke in place, and so he felt more strongly the weight and shock. A constant regret of lost freedom, the abhorrence of the present state, a tiring wandering around wishing that they would never met, these were the main occupations of his mind. Rehashed that bitter past, he would rework the memory of all the circumstances for which he was there, and undid a thousand times in vain with the thought that he had done with the work, accusing him of worthlessness, others from tyranny and perfidy, and gnawing . Cried together and idolized her beauty, he deplored a youth destined to droop in a slow martyrdom, and envied, at times, any woman, whatever the conditions, with any conscience in the world could freely enjoy these 'gifts.
The sight of the nuns who had taken a hand to pull in there, she hateful. He remembered the arts and deceptions that they had put in place, and paid with a lot of rudeness, with lots of teasing, and even rubbed in their face open. With those agreed for the most part to swallow and keep quiet because the prince had wanted to tyrannize his daughter well what was necessary to ispingerla the cloister, but got the intent, would not so readily suffered that others pretended to have against the reason his blood , and every bit 'of noise that they had, could be the cause of it to lose that much protection, or to change his adventure in the protector enemy. It seems that Gertrude would feel a propensity for the other sisters, who had no part in quegl'intrighi, and that without it you want to mate, loved her as such, and pie, occupied and hilarious, the show by their example as well as in there could not only live, but go along well. But these were also the hateful, on the other hand. Their air of piety and contentment she found as a rebuke of his anxiety, and conduct shrew, and not miss any opportunity to laugh behind his back, as Pinzochere, or bite them as hypocritical. Perhaps it would have been less hostile to them, if he knew or guessed that the little black balls found in the cartridge case decided that its acceptance than there were in fact been made.
Sometimes it seemed sometimes to find consolation in the lead, in being courted in a monastery, will receive the visits of compliment from people outside, some commitment in the dawn, in spending his protection, in hearing himself called the lady, but what consolation! The heart, being so little satisfied, he wanted to add from time to time, and rejoice with them the consolations of religion, but they are not unless he neglects that other: as a castaway, if he wants to grab the table which can lead safely to shore, it must also extend my fist, and leave the algae, which had taken, rage instinct.
Shortly after the occupation, she was made dell'educande teacher and now as you think those girls had to stand under such a framework. His oldest confidants were all outputs; but she kept alive all the passions of that time, and, in one way or another, the students dovevan bear them now. When she was in mind that many of them were destined to live in that world from which it was excluded for ever, he felt a resentment against those poor things, almost a desire for revenge, and held her down, the despised, made them pay for the advance pleasures that they enjoyed a day. Who had heard, in those 'moments, with indignation that the Master cried, for every little escapade, he would have believed a woman of a savage spirituality and indiscreet. At other times, the same horror of the cloister, for the rule, to obedience, would burst into fits of temper completely opposite. So, not only bear svagatezza the clamor of her students, but the excitement, mingled with it 'their games, and made them the most unruly, he entered a part of' their speech, and pushed them beyond the intention with which they had begun. If someone said a word about the buzz the Mother Superior, the teacher imitated the long, and made it a comedy scene, imitating the face of a nun, the pace of another: then laughed uproariously, but that they were laughing not leave happier than before. So she had lived for some years, having no convenient or opportunity to do more, and when his misfortune would have it, an opportunity presented itself.
Among other distinctions and privileges that were were granted to compensate for not being able to be abbess, was also to be in a separate district. That side of the monastery was adjacent to a house inhabited by a young man, villain of the profession, one of 'many, that, in this' time, and co' them thugs, and the alliances of other villains, they could, until a certain point, laugh at the police and laws. Our manuscript names him Egidio, without speaking of the family. He, from his small window overlooking a courtyard of the neighborhood, having seen or girandolar Gertrude sometimes go there for leisure, rather that enticed and terrified by the dangers of the dall'empietà, one day he dared to ask the speech. The unfortunate answer. In
this' first moments, he felt a joy, not straightforward to be sure, but alive. In the dreary emptiness of his soul had failed to instill strong employment, continuing and, almost, a powerful life, but that happiness was similar to the dining drink the ingenious cruelty of the old mingled the offender, to give strength to bear the torment. He saw, at the same time, big deal in all his conduct: he became, suddenly, smoother, quieter, the ridicule and the rumbling stopped, showed even caressing and manner, so that the sisters were happy to change each other happy, they were far from imagining the real reason, and understand that Under the new addition was nothing more than old-fashioned hypocrisy flaws. That appearance, however, that, so to speak, exterior painting, did not last a long time, at least with the continuity and equality: soon returned to the field and the usual vagaries of the usual teasing, back to bite the curses and insults against the cloistered prison, and sometimes expressed in language unusual in that place, and also in the mouth. But each of these escapades was behind a repentance, a great care to make her forget, by dint of coaxing and kind words. The sisters endured the best of all these alt'e low, and attributed to the character of Mrs. shrew and light.
For some time, did not appear that any further thought, but one day the lady came to words in a conversation, not to know that gossip, he let himself go so out of ill-treatment, and could not stop the conversation, after suffering , bit his lip and have a piece, finally scappatale patience, threw a word there, she knew something, and that, in time and place, would speak. From that moment on, the lady had no peace. It was not long, however, that the conversation was expected in vain, one morning, 'his usual ufizi: you go to see in his cell, and is not: it is called aloud, does not answer, look here, look there, goes round and round, by top to bottom, there's nowhere. And who knows what presumptions would be made if, in fact in the search, had not discovered a hole in the wall of the garden, the thing which made him think all who were evicted from there. He did much research in Monza and 'outline, and mainly in Meda, where he was to that conversation, have been described in various parts, not ever, not seeing the smallest news. Maybe he could know more if, instead of seeking out, had dug near. After many wonders, because nobody would believe him capable of this, and after many speeches, it was concluded that had to be gone far, far away. And because it ran a nun told: - has run a safe refuge in Holland, - You said once, and was retained for a long time, and outside the monastery, who had taken refuge in Holland. It does not seem, however, that the lady was of this opinion. Not that showed he did not believe, or fought the conventional wisdom, with its specific reasons: if they had, of course, reasons were never so well disguised, nor was it from which s'astenesse more willing to stir from the history, something that will cure unless you touch the bottom of that mystery. But the less talked about, the more he thought about it. How many times a day the image of that woman was a fighter in his mind suddenly, and stood there, and would not move itself! How many times would you want to contend before the true and living, rather that it always fixed in thought, rather than having to come by, day and night, accompanied by the shape vain, terrible, impassive! How many times have really wanted to hear the voice of her, whatever he could threaten, rather than always having the mental depths of the ear whispering that same great voice, and hear words repeated with a pertinacity with relentless insistence, that no living person never had!
was last approximately one year after the fact, when Lucy was presented to the lady, and had that conversation with her at which we stayed with the story. Mrs. questions multiplied about the persecution of Don Rodrigo, and went into some detail, with a boldness, that could and should get more than a new Lucia, who had never thought that the curiosity of the nuns could practice around such topics. Then reviews the question that the intermixed, or betrayed, were no less strange. It seemed as if laughing at the great disgust that Lucia had always been a gentleman, and asked if he was a monster, to be terrified, it seemed almost silly that he would find unreasonable and the reluctance of the young man, unless he had reason for the preference Renzo. And this also advancing to questions that were surprised and questioned the blush. Then perceiving that he had left it too will run the tongue behind the recreation of the brain, tried to correct and to interpret in its better than gossip, but could not do that Lucia did not remain an unpleasant surprise, as a confused and frightened. It could just be alone with her mother, if n'aprì with her, but Agnes, as more experienced, dissolved with a few words, all these 'questions, and explained the whole mystery. - You will not be surprise, - he said - when you know the world as I do, you'll see that these are not things to do with it surprise. The men, some more, some less, some for one thing, some for another, all have a little 'checkmate. Should be left to say, especially when s'ha need them, pretend to listen to them seriously, as if to say the right things. Did you hear how he's given me the voice, as if I told some great blunder? I do not I am made the case in point. They are all well. And with all this, thank God, it seems that this lady took a liking took thee, and really wants to protect us. Moreover, if fields, my daughter, and even if t'accaderà of having to do with de 'Gentlemen, I feel, I feel, I feel.
The desire to compel the guardian, the willingness to protect, the thought of a good concept that could yield protection used so holy, a penchant for Lucia, and even some relief in doing good to an innocent child, in and consular assistance to the oppressed, they had really willing to take the lady to the fate of the chest two poor fugitive. At her request, and about him, were housed in the farmer's district adjacent to the cloister, and treated as if they were engaged in the service of the monastery. The mother and daughter were happy together so soon have found a safe haven and honored. They also had much pleasure to be ignored by everyone, but it was not easy in a monastery, especially as there was a man too thoughtful to have news of one of them, and in the soul of which the passion and the first prime-time had also added annoyance of having been notified and is disappointed. And we, leaving women in their recovery, he will return to the palace of the hour in which they were awaiting the outcome of his infamous expedition.
slightly, Prince *** immediately saw the crack open and consistent with its ancient sights. Sent word that in Gertrude came from him, and waiting, he prepared to beat the iron while it was hot. Gertrude appeared, and, without raising his eyes to face his father, he threw himself on his knees before him, and had just breath to say - forgive me! - He made a sign that rises, but with a little item that may hearten you, replied that forgiveness was not enough to wish or ask, what that was too easy and too natural to anyone who is found guilty, and the theme punishment, that sum had to deserve it. Gertrude asked, softly and trembling, what he should do. The Prince (no holding him in the heart of this moment the title of father) did not answer directly, but began to talk at length about the failure of Gertrude: and those words fizz on the soul of the poor, like the flow of a rough hand upon a wound. He continued by saying that even if ... If ever ... that he had any intention of putting it in the first century, she had taken an insurmountable obstacle hours, as a knight of honor, as he was he would never be enough for the spirit of giving to a gentleman who had a young lady given such a test himself. The poor listener was annihilated: the prince then, softened by degrees his voice and words, but went on to say that there was any foul remedy and mercy, that his was one of those for which the remedy is clearly indicated : that she had to see, in this sad accident, as a notice that the life of the world was too full of danger for her ...
- Ah yes! - Gertrude cried, shaken with fear, prepared by the shame, and move at that point by a snapshot tenderness.
- Ah! you understand you too - shooting Prince incontinent. - Well, there was no talk of the past: everything is deleted. You took the only honorable party, convenient, which will remain, but because you've got a good heart, and with good manner, it is up to welcome me to let you succeed in every way: it's my turn to make back all the advantage and all the credit upon you. I'll take care -. So saying, he rang a bell that was on the table, and the servant who entered, he said - the princess and the young prince suffered -. It then continued with Gertrude: - I want them now part of my consolation, I want everybody to start immediately to treat them rightly. You have experienced part of the strict father, but henceforth will experience all the loving father.
At these words, she was left as stunned. Now as never looked back so that any had escaped, he could have meant so much, now trying to catch him if there was a way of shrinking the way, but the prince seemed so full of persuasion, his joy so jealous, so the benign condition, Gertrude did not dare utter a word that might disturb them the least.
After a few moments, the two were called, and seeing there Gertrude looked at her face, uncertain and astonished. But the prince, with a happy, loving demeanor, like that prescribed them, - here, - he said - the lost sheep: and this is the last word recall sad memories. Here is the consolation of the family. Gertrude has no need of advice, what we desired for her sake, he wanted her own accord. It is determined, made me understand that is determined ... - At this step, he lifted it to his father a look of terror and supplication, as to ask him to suspend, but he went on frankly - that is determined to take the veil.
- Brava! good! - Exclaimed with one voice, the mother and child, and one after the other abbracciaron Gertrude; this welcome which he received with tears, which were interpreted to tears of consolation. The prince then spread to explain what would render a happy and wonderful for his daughter's fate. He spoke of the distinctions in goderebbe in the monastery and in the country, that there would be like a princess, as the representative of the family that as soon as age would permit, would be raised to the first dignity, and, meanwhile, is not subject that name. The princess and the prince renewed every moment, congratulations and applause: Gertrude was as dominated by a dream.
- then worthwhile to fix the day, to go to Monza, to make the request to the abbess, - Said the prince. - How to be happy! I can tell you that the monastery will be able to assess the honor Gertrude ago. Indeed ... why do not we go now? Gertrude gladly take a little 'air.
- Let us go, - said the princess.
- I want to give orders, - said the prince.
- Ma .. - Gertrude uttered softly.
- Piano, piano, - continued the prince - let her decide, perhaps today does not feel quite ready, and would like more delay until tomorrow. Say that you want to go today or tomorrow?
- Tomorrow - said, his voice weak, Gertrude, which still seemed to have something, take some 'time.
- Tomorrow, - the prince said solemnly: - Decided that we go tomorrow. Meanwhile, I go by the vicar of the nuns, to fix a day for the examination -. With this, the prince went out and did it really (was not that little condescension) from the vicar said, and planned that there would in two days.
In the rest of that day, she did not have a minute of good. He wanted to rest the soul of many emotions, letting, so to speak, to clarify his thoughts, to account to herself of what she had done, what remained to be done, knowing what he wanted, a slow time that machine that just started, did so precipitously, but there was no way. The occupations followed one another without interruption, intertwine with each other. Soon after the party prince, the princess was taken to the toilet, to be under his direction, combed and covered by his housekeeper. He was not yet finished to give the last hand, that they were warned that it was on the table. Gertrude passed between agl'inchini the servants, who alluded to congratulate him for healing, and found some close relatives, who had been invited in haste to honor them, and to rejoice with her de 'two happy events, the recovered health, vocation and explained.
The bride (this was the young chiamavan monacande, and Gertrude, as it appeared, was widely greeted with that name), the bride had to say and do in response to 'the fioccavan compliments from all sides. He felt good that each of his responses, as acceptance and confirmation, but how to respond differently? Shortly thereafter left the table, it was time the trot. Gertrude entered the carriage with her mother and two uncles who had been at dinner. After a usual round, succeeded to the Marina Road, then through the space occupied by the park hours, and was the place where the gentlemen were in a carriage to recreate the labors of the day. The uncles also spoke to Gertrude, as the convenience brought in that day, and one of them, which seemed that most of the other, he knew every person, every coach, every livery, and each time had something to say about the that Mr and Mrs at others, she turned to her suddenly, and said - ah sly! you give a kick to all this nonsense, you're a dirittona; planted negl'impicci us poor worldly, you retire to make a happy life, and go to heaven in a chariot.
Later on, he returned home and the servants, with torches coming down quickly, warned that many visits were waiting. The item ran, and relatives and friends were doing their duty. Ever entered the hall of the conversation. The bride was its idol, the sport, the victim. Everyone wanted her for himself, who was to promise sweet, who promised visits, the speaker of the mother that her cousin, who's mother that her other friend, who praised the heavens in Monza, who talked with great taste, the great figure that she would have done. Others, that they had not yet been able to get close to Gertrude so besieged, they were watching an opportunity to come forward, and felt some remorse, since they had not done their homework. Gradually, the company s'andò fading, if all went off without remorse, and she was left alone co 'parents and brother.
- Finally, - said the prince, - I had the consolation of seeing my daughter treated by her par. But we must confess that she has been brought just fine, and showed that not to be hanged in the first figure, and upholding the dignity of the family.
We dined in a hurry to retire immediately, and be ready early the next morning. Gertrude
saddened, annoyed and at the same time, a little 'inflated by all this' ceremony, at that point he remembered what he had suffered from his captor, and, seeing his father so willing to please her in everything, save a What, he wanted to take advantage dell'auge where he was, at least to quell the passions that tormented her. Then showed a great reluctance to be with her, complaining strongly of his manners.
- What! - Said the prince - hath disrespected her! Tomorrow, tomorrow, I'll wash the head as he goes. Leave it to me, that I know who you are, and who you are. And anyway, a daughter of which I am happy not to see each other around a person who displease -. So saying, he called another woman, and ordered her to serve Gertrude, which in the meantime, chewing and savoring the satisfaction that he had received, was surprised to find so little juice, in comparison to the desire that had had none. What, even against his will, took possession of all his soul, was the sentiment of 'great progress he had made that day on the road of the cloister, the thought that it would take hours to withdraw from much more strength and determination to what would be a matter of days before, and yet he had not heard of you. The woman who went to
accompany her in the room, was an old house, was already the ruler of the prince, who had just been released by the band, and pulled up through adolescence, and in which he had pinned all his complacency, his hopes, his glory. It was pleased with the decision made on that day, as of his own fortune, and Gertrude, for ultimate fun, had to suck his congratulations, praise, advice of the old, and hear about some of his aunts and great-aunts, who s'eran are very happy to be nuns, because, being in that house, they had always enjoyed the first honors, they had always managed to hold out a paw, and from their parlor, had obtained the greatest things that ladies in their rooms, There were not been able to get there. He spoke of the visits which he received one day later, Mr. Prince would be with his wife, who must certainly have a great Signoroni, and then, not only the monastery, but the whole country would be in motion. The old woman had spoken while undressed Gertrude, when Gertrude was in bed, he spoke again, that Gertrude was sleeping. Youth and fatigue were the strongest de 'thoughts. Sleep was labored, muddy, full of dreams painful, but that was not broken by the screaming voice of old, who came to wake her, because they prepare for the trip to Monza.
- Come on, come on, lady bride: it's daylight, and before it is dressed and combed, it will take at least one hour. The princess lady is getting dressed, and they woke up four hours earlier than usual. Mr. Prince has already fallen to the teams, then came back up, and is about to leave when the order is. As lively as a hare, that little devil, but! has been so since childhood, and I can say that I took him in her arms. So, when ready, do not expect it, because, although it is the best pasta in the world, grew impatient, and then screaming. Poor thing! we must pity: it is his natural and then this time would also have a little 'reason, why trouble yourself about her. Woe to those who touch him in those 'moments! has no regard for anyone, except for Mr. Prince. But finally not above saying that Mr. Prince, and one day, Mr. Prince will be him later that it is possible, though. Lesta, quick, young lady! Because I look so magical? By now it should be out of the kennel.
image of the prince impatiently, all other thoughts had crowded to the awakened mind of Gertrude, you levaron once, like a flock of sparrows at the appearance of the kite. He obeyed, dressed in a hurry, left comb, and appeared in the hall, where his parents and brother were gathered. Was made to sit upon a chair with armrests, and was brought a cup of hot chocolate: which, in this' time, what was already among the Romans As to the virile.
When they came to warn that it was attacked, the prince took his daughter aside, and said: - Come, Gertrude, you have done yesterday honor you today, you have to overcome it. This is to make a formal appearance in the monastery and in the country where you are destined to be the first figure. I'll wait ... - It goes without saying that the prince had sent a notice to the abbess, the day before. - I'll wait, and all eyes will be upon you. Dignity and aplomb. The abbess asks you what you want: it is a formality. Can you answer that ask to be allowed to wear the dress in that monastery, where you been so lovingly brought up, where you have received so many subtleties: it is the truth. Say those few words, with a loose do: not to say that s'avesse v'hanno spigot, and you do not know about you. The good mothers know nothing of what happened: it's a secret that should remain buried in the family, and therefore do not face a contrite and doubtful, that could give some suspicion. Let's see which blood exits: Manor, a modest, but remember that in that place, out of the family, there will be no one above you.
Without waiting for an answer, the prince moved, Gertrude, the princess and the prince followed him, all went down the stairs, and they rode in a carriage. Gl'impicci and the troubles of the world, and the blessed life of the cloister, mainly for young blood noble, were the topic of conversation during the trip. Towards the end of the road, Prince renewed his instructions to his daughter, and several times repeated the formula of the response. Upon entering in Monza, she felt sad at heart, but his attention was drawn to a moment of gentlemen who do not know what, without stopping the train, I do not know what they recited compliment. Resuming our journey, went almost pitch to the monastery, between the eyes of 'the curious, who came from all over the street. To stop the carriage, in front of those walls, in front of that door, my heart clung more to Gertrude. He got down between two wings of the people, the servants were to stand back. All those eyes him to the poor required to study its behavior continuously, but more than all those together, the two kept in suggezione the father, 'which it, although he had so much fear, could not let her pay for each time. And he ruled his eyes and moves his face, as by invisible reins. Through the first courtyard, ever entered another, and there you saw the door of the cloister, all wide open and occupied by nuns. In the front row, surrounded by old abbess, and behind, other nuns in bulk, some on tiptoes, standing above converse in the last benches. Also were seen here and there some little eyes sparkle in the air, check a few little face between the habits: They were the most right, and the most courageous among the boarders, who, thrusting and penetrating between monks and nuns, were able to get a bit 'of hole, also to see something. Cheers from the crowd came out, many could be seen wiggling arms as a sign of welcome and joy. They came to the door, Gertrude found himself face to face with the Mother Abbess. After the first compliment, that, a way between the joyful and solemn, he asked what he wanted in that place, where there were those who could deny anything.
- I'm here ..., - Gertrude began, but at the point of uttering the words that were almost irrevocably decider of his fate, he hesitated a moment, and stood with eyes fixed on the crowd that stood before him. He saw, at that time, one of his known companions, who looked with an air of compassion and mischief together, and seemed to say: Ah! the waterfall is a good girl. The sight, awakening more vivid in his mind all the old feelings, returned a little 'of what little ancient courage, and was already looking for the answer any different from that which had been dictated, when looked up to father's face, as if to experiment with his forces, he saw so dark on that anxiety, impatience so menacing, that firm out of fear, with the same readiness that would have taken the flight before a terrible subject, he continued: - I am here to ask to be allowed to wear the religious habit in this convent, where I was raised so lovingly -. The abbess replied immediately that she minded much, in such an occasion, that the rules did not enable it to give an immediate reply, which was to be shared by the votes of the sisters, and which was to precede the license of 'superiors. But Gertrude, knowing that s'avevan feelings for her in that place, he could foresee with certainty what would that answer, and that while no rule forbidding the abbess and nuns to demonstrate that they felt the consolation of that request. He got the rig then a confused and congratulatory cheers of. They were just great gloves full of sweets, which they were submitted first to the bride, and after his relatives. While some nuns were to rubarsela, and other complimentavan the mother, the other prince, the abbess did pray that the prince would be grateful to the parlor, where he was waiting. She was accompanied by two old, and when she saw him appear, - Mr. Prince, - he said - to obey the rules ... necessary to fulfill a formality, although in this case ... well I must tell you ... that, whenever a child asks to be allowed to wear the dress, ... the superior, which I am unworthy ... and duty to warn parents ... that if, by chance ... force the wishes of his daughter, would incur excommunication. Excuse me ...
- Fine, fine, Reverend Mother. Lodo its accuracy: it is just too ... But you can not doubt ... - Oh! think, Mr. Prince, ... I spoke to specific obligation ... the rest ...
- Sure, sure, Mother Superior.
bartered these few words, the partners bowed to each other, and parted, as if to weigh them both to remain there butt, and went to meet each of his company, one out, the other in the threshold cloistered. Resulted in a bit 'of other chatter - Oh way, - said the prince - Gertrude will soon be able to enjoy the company of his leisurely these mothers. For now we have enough inconvenience -. So saying, he bowed, and the family moved with him, they renewed their compliments, and we left.
Gertrude, in return, did not want to talk too much. Frightened of the step she took, ashamed of his worthlessness, aggravated against others and against himself, was a sad account of the occasion, which remained still say no, weak and confused, and promised to herself that in this , or that, or into that, it would be right and stronger. With all these thoughts, however, had not ceased at all the terror of that scowl of his father, so that, when given to him in passing at a glance, he could clarify that on the face of it there was no trace of anger, when indeed saw that it showed very satisfied with her, it seemed a good thing, and was, for a moment, overjoyed.
When you arrive, you have to get dressed and rilisciarsi, then dinner, then a few visits, then the trot, then the conversation, then dinner. On the end of this, the prince fielded another matter, the choice of sponsor. So he called a lady, who, prayed by the 'parents, and became guardian of the young monacanda Commons, the time between the request and entratura in the monastery; time was spent in visiting the churches, public buildings, conversations, villas, shrines all things, in short, the most notable of the city and de 'contours, so young, before uttering Rate irrevocable, saw a good thing they gave a kick. - We must think of a godmother, - said the prince - because tomorrow will be the vicar of the nuns, the formalities for examination, and soon after, she will be given in chapter, to be accepted by parent -. In saying this, he had turned to the princess, and this, thinking it was an invitation to propose, began: - there would be ... - The prince interrupted: - No, no, lady princess: the godmother must first please the bride, and although the universal use gives the choice to relatives, as well as Gertrude's opinion, much good sense, good that it deserves make an exception for you -. And here, turning to Gertrude, in act of those who preach a singular grace, he continued: - each of the ladies who've found this evening to talk, has what is required to be godmother of a daughter of our house there is none, I think, not is honored to keep the preference: take your pick.
Gertrude could see that this choice was to give a new consensus, but the proposal was made with such apparatus, that the refusal, as it was humble, he could seem contempt, or at least whim and affectation. He therefore also that step, and named the lady who, on that evening, she went over to genius that is the one that had more strokes, which had the most praised, those who had dealt with manners family, loving and caring, that it 'the first moments of knowledge, contraffanno an old friendship. - Good choice, - said the prince, who wanted and expected exactly that. Was art or event, as had happened when the players make you Bussolotti before one's eyes a bunch of cards, you said that you think one, and he then guess the ve, but has slid in a manner that you see alone. That lady was so Gertrude around all night, had occupied so much of himself, that this would need an effort of imagination to think of another. Many caring and then they were not without reason: the lady had a long time, set his sights on the young prince, to make his son: so related things of that house as his own, and it was quite natural that to be interested by that dear Gertrude, no less de 'their next of kin.
The next day, she awoke with the thought that the examiner was to come, and while he was chewing if he could seize the opportunity so decisive, to go back, and in what manner, the prince sent for. - Come, my child, - he said: - so far, you've flow very well: it is now necessary to crown the work. All that has been done so far has been done to your approval. If at this time, I was born some doubt, some pentimentuccio, shackles of youth, you had to explain, but the point at which things are now, is not the time to girls. An honest man who is to come this morning, will make one hundred questions about your vocation, and if you become a nun of your will, and why and for how, and what not? If you hesitated in responding, will keep you on the line who knows what. Un'uggia would be a torment for you, but it may be another even more serious trouble. After all public demonstrations that are made, even the slightest hesitation that we saw in you, would jeopardize my honor, I believe that I could take your own weight to a firm resolution, which had precipitated the matter, which I ... I know I? In this case, I find it necessary to choose between painful two parties: either let the world form a sad concept of my conduct: a party that absolutely can not stand with what I owe to myself. O reveal the real reason for your termination e. .. - But here, seeing that Gertrude had become scarlet, which is gonfiavan eyes, and his face twitched, like the leaves of a flower, nell'afa before the storm broke off that discourse, and, looking serene, continued: - gone, gone, everything depends on you, by your good opinion. So much that had none, and you are not girl to spoil the end of a thing done well, but I had to foresee all the cases. Do not talk about it anymore, and restiam agree that you will answer frankly, in a manner not to be born in doubt head of an honest man. So you too will be out soon -. And here, after some suggested answer to the most likely came in the usual discourse of sweetness and de 'pleasures that were prepared to Gertrude in the monastery, and stayed in that, until a servant came to announce the vicar. The prince quickly renewed warnings most important, and left his daughter alone with him, as it was prescribed.
A good man was a bit 'of opinion that Gertrude had already made a great vocation to the cloister, because it had said the prince, when he was to invite him. It is true that the good priest, who knew that the suspicion was one of the virtues longer needed in its ufizio had to go slowly in the maximum to believe such protests, and to guard against the concerns, but rarely is that the words of an affirmative and reliable person in authority, in any genre, not tinged with the color of their mind of the listener. After the first
compliments, - Miss, - he said - I come to play the part of the devil come to question what, in her plea she has taken for granted, I come to them before the eyes of the difficulties, and to determine whether the well was considered. It pleased me to do some questioning.
- Say well, - said Gertrude.
The good priest then began to question in the form prescribed by rules. - She feels in her heart, a free, spontaneous resolution to become a nun? Have not been used threats or flattery? He has not made use of any authority, to persuade her to this? Talk about no respect, and sincerity, a man whose duty it is to know his true desire to prevent that violence will not be used in any way.
The real answer to a question that appeared at once to the mind of Gertrude, with evidence terrible. To give that answer, we had come to an explanation, saying that she had been threatened, tell a story ... The unfortunate shunned frightened by this idea, quickly tried another answer, he found one who could rescue the early and certainly from that punishment, the more contrary to the truth. - I make a nun, - he said, hiding his emotion, - I make a nun, my genius, freely.
- how long was born Codest thought? - Asked, the good priest.
- I've always had - said Gertrude, became, after that first step, more honest to lie against itself.
- What is the main reason that causes it to become a nun?
The good priest did not know what a terrible touch button, and Gertrude became a great strength not to let it shine on your face the effect it produces in those words. - The reason - he said - is to serve God, and to escape the dangers of the world.
- It would not be some disgust? some ... Excuse me ... whim? At times, one can cause momentary impression that it seems as devas endure forever, and then when the cause ceases, and the mood is changed, then ...
- No, no, - Gertrude hastily replied: - the reason is what I said.
The vicar, to more fully fulfill its obligation, which for the conviction that we needed it, persisted with the questions, but Gertrude was determined to deceive. Beyond the horror that was causing the thought of rendering conscious of his weakness that serious and honest priest, who seemed so far away from the suspicion that something of her, the poor girl thought even then he could well prevent the nun did, but there ended his authority above her, and her protection. Party that was, it would be alone with the prince. And then whatever he had to suffer in that house, the good priest n'avrebbe not heard anything, or knowing, with all its good intentions, could not help but feel compassion for her, the compassion quiet and measured, that in general harmony, as you please, who has given cause or excuse the evil that they do. The examiner was tired of the first interview, that the misfortune of lying: and, hearing those answers always comply, and have no reason to doubt their sincerity, changed his last speech, congratulated her and asked, in a way , sorry for being late so much to make this his duty, he added that he believed most likely to confirm the good intention, and resigned.
through the halls to get out, Fell in the prince, who thought that went there by chance, and he also congratulated the good dispositions in which he had found his daughter. The prince had been until then suspended in a very painful: in the news, breathed, and forgetting his usual gravity, he went almost running by Gertrude filled her with praises, caresses and promises, with a heartfelt joy, with a largely sincere tenderness: this fact is this jumble of the human heart. We do not follow
Gertrude continued in that round of shows and entertainment. And not even describe, in detail and to order, the feelings of his soul in all that time: it would be a story of pain and fluctuations, too boring and too similar to what has been said. The pleasantness of 'places, the variety of objects, but what fun that was in the running here and there in the open air, the more hateful rendevan the idea of \u200b\u200bthe place where the end is disassembled for the last time, for forever. More poignant still was the impression he received in conversations and holidays. The sight of the wives to whom you gave this title in the most obvious and most-used, envy causes him a gnawing intolerable, and sometimes the appearance of some other character made her opinion that, to feeling that way, would be the height of all happiness. Sometimes the pump de 'palaces, the magnificence of the decorations, the swarm and the joyful noise of the parties, informed the rapture, the ardor of a joyous life, who promised herself to retract, to suffer everything rather than return to 'shadow of the cloister cold and dead. But all the resolutions rested faded to address many of the difficulties, the only fixed his eyes on his face to the prince. Sometimes even the thought of having to abandon forever this' enjoyment, made him Arnar and painful that little essay, like the thirsty looks sick with anger, defiance and almost Push back with the spoon of water that the doctor the grant effort. Meanwhile the vicar of the nuns had issued the necessary certificate, and was licensed to keep the chapter for the acceptance of Gertrude. The chapter was held; concurred, was to be expected, two-thirds of 'secret votes that were required by' regulations, and Gertrude was accepted. She herself, tired of that long agony, then asked to enter as fast as possible, in the monastery. There was no doubt who would curb such impatience. It was therefore made his will, and, pompously conducted at the monastery, took the habit. After twelve months of the novitiate, full of remorse and repent, he found himself at the profession, in which it agreed that at the time, or say not a stranger, more unexpected, more outrageous than ever, or repeat a so many times said, repeated it, and was a nun for good.
is one of the unique and incommunicable power of the Christian religion, the ability to guide and comfort anyone in any situation in any term, recourse to it. If the past is no remedy, it prescribes, the administration by light and force to implement it, whatever the cost, if there is, it gives a way to really and in effect, what is said in proverb, a virtue of necessity. Teaches wisdom to continue with what has been done to lightness; bend the mind with a propensity to embrace this which was imposed by the arrogance, and gives a choice that was reckless, but that it is irrevocable, all holiness, all the wisdom, but let's face it frankly, all the joys of their vocation. It is a road so that, on any labyrinth, from any precipice, the man understood it, and you take a step, can henceforth walk with confidence and good will, and comes gladly to a happy ending. By this means, she could have been a nun holy and happy, however it had become. But the unhappy struggling under the yoke in place, and so he felt more strongly the weight and shock. A constant regret of lost freedom, the abhorrence of the present state, a tiring wandering around wishing that they would never met, these were the main occupations of his mind. Rehashed that bitter past, he would rework the memory of all the circumstances for which he was there, and undid a thousand times in vain with the thought that he had done with the work, accusing him of worthlessness, others from tyranny and perfidy, and gnawing . Cried together and idolized her beauty, he deplored a youth destined to droop in a slow martyrdom, and envied, at times, any woman, whatever the conditions, with any conscience in the world could freely enjoy these 'gifts.
The sight of the nuns who had taken a hand to pull in there, she hateful. He remembered the arts and deceptions that they had put in place, and paid with a lot of rudeness, with lots of teasing, and even rubbed in their face open. With those agreed for the most part to swallow and keep quiet because the prince had wanted to tyrannize his daughter well what was necessary to ispingerla the cloister, but got the intent, would not so readily suffered that others pretended to have against the reason his blood , and every bit 'of noise that they had, could be the cause of it to lose that much protection, or to change his adventure in the protector enemy. It seems that Gertrude would feel a propensity for the other sisters, who had no part in quegl'intrighi, and that without it you want to mate, loved her as such, and pie, occupied and hilarious, the show by their example as well as in there could not only live, but go along well. But these were also the hateful, on the other hand. Their air of piety and contentment she found as a rebuke of his anxiety, and conduct shrew, and not miss any opportunity to laugh behind his back, as Pinzochere, or bite them as hypocritical. Perhaps it would have been less hostile to them, if he knew or guessed that the little black balls found in the cartridge case decided that its acceptance than there were in fact been made.
Sometimes it seemed sometimes to find consolation in the lead, in being courted in a monastery, will receive the visits of compliment from people outside, some commitment in the dawn, in spending his protection, in hearing himself called the lady, but what consolation! The heart, being so little satisfied, he wanted to add from time to time, and rejoice with them the consolations of religion, but they are not unless he neglects that other: as a castaway, if he wants to grab the table which can lead safely to shore, it must also extend my fist, and leave the algae, which had taken, rage instinct.
Shortly after the occupation, she was made dell'educande teacher and now as you think those girls had to stand under such a framework. His oldest confidants were all outputs; but she kept alive all the passions of that time, and, in one way or another, the students dovevan bear them now. When she was in mind that many of them were destined to live in that world from which it was excluded for ever, he felt a resentment against those poor things, almost a desire for revenge, and held her down, the despised, made them pay for the advance pleasures that they enjoyed a day. Who had heard, in those 'moments, with indignation that the Master cried, for every little escapade, he would have believed a woman of a savage spirituality and indiscreet. At other times, the same horror of the cloister, for the rule, to obedience, would burst into fits of temper completely opposite. So, not only bear svagatezza the clamor of her students, but the excitement, mingled with it 'their games, and made them the most unruly, he entered a part of' their speech, and pushed them beyond the intention with which they had begun. If someone said a word about the buzz the Mother Superior, the teacher imitated the long, and made it a comedy scene, imitating the face of a nun, the pace of another: then laughed uproariously, but that they were laughing not leave happier than before. So she had lived for some years, having no convenient or opportunity to do more, and when his misfortune would have it, an opportunity presented itself.
Among other distinctions and privileges that were were granted to compensate for not being able to be abbess, was also to be in a separate district. That side of the monastery was adjacent to a house inhabited by a young man, villain of the profession, one of 'many, that, in this' time, and co' them thugs, and the alliances of other villains, they could, until a certain point, laugh at the police and laws. Our manuscript names him Egidio, without speaking of the family. He, from his small window overlooking a courtyard of the neighborhood, having seen or girandolar Gertrude sometimes go there for leisure, rather that enticed and terrified by the dangers of the dall'empietà, one day he dared to ask the speech. The unfortunate answer. In
this' first moments, he felt a joy, not straightforward to be sure, but alive. In the dreary emptiness of his soul had failed to instill strong employment, continuing and, almost, a powerful life, but that happiness was similar to the dining drink the ingenious cruelty of the old mingled the offender, to give strength to bear the torment. He saw, at the same time, big deal in all his conduct: he became, suddenly, smoother, quieter, the ridicule and the rumbling stopped, showed even caressing and manner, so that the sisters were happy to change each other happy, they were far from imagining the real reason, and understand that Under the new addition was nothing more than old-fashioned hypocrisy flaws. That appearance, however, that, so to speak, exterior painting, did not last a long time, at least with the continuity and equality: soon returned to the field and the usual vagaries of the usual teasing, back to bite the curses and insults against the cloistered prison, and sometimes expressed in language unusual in that place, and also in the mouth. But each of these escapades was behind a repentance, a great care to make her forget, by dint of coaxing and kind words. The sisters endured the best of all these alt'e low, and attributed to the character of Mrs. shrew and light.
For some time, did not appear that any further thought, but one day the lady came to words in a conversation, not to know that gossip, he let himself go so out of ill-treatment, and could not stop the conversation, after suffering , bit his lip and have a piece, finally scappatale patience, threw a word there, she knew something, and that, in time and place, would speak. From that moment on, the lady had no peace. It was not long, however, that the conversation was expected in vain, one morning, 'his usual ufizi: you go to see in his cell, and is not: it is called aloud, does not answer, look here, look there, goes round and round, by top to bottom, there's nowhere. And who knows what presumptions would be made if, in fact in the search, had not discovered a hole in the wall of the garden, the thing which made him think all who were evicted from there. He did much research in Monza and 'outline, and mainly in Meda, where he was to that conversation, have been described in various parts, not ever, not seeing the smallest news. Maybe he could know more if, instead of seeking out, had dug near. After many wonders, because nobody would believe him capable of this, and after many speeches, it was concluded that had to be gone far, far away. And because it ran a nun told: - has run a safe refuge in Holland, - You said once, and was retained for a long time, and outside the monastery, who had taken refuge in Holland. It does not seem, however, that the lady was of this opinion. Not that showed he did not believe, or fought the conventional wisdom, with its specific reasons: if they had, of course, reasons were never so well disguised, nor was it from which s'astenesse more willing to stir from the history, something that will cure unless you touch the bottom of that mystery. But the less talked about, the more he thought about it. How many times a day the image of that woman was a fighter in his mind suddenly, and stood there, and would not move itself! How many times would you want to contend before the true and living, rather that it always fixed in thought, rather than having to come by, day and night, accompanied by the shape vain, terrible, impassive! How many times have really wanted to hear the voice of her, whatever he could threaten, rather than always having the mental depths of the ear whispering that same great voice, and hear words repeated with a pertinacity with relentless insistence, that no living person never had!
was last approximately one year after the fact, when Lucy was presented to the lady, and had that conversation with her at which we stayed with the story. Mrs. questions multiplied about the persecution of Don Rodrigo, and went into some detail, with a boldness, that could and should get more than a new Lucia, who had never thought that the curiosity of the nuns could practice around such topics. Then reviews the question that the intermixed, or betrayed, were no less strange. It seemed as if laughing at the great disgust that Lucia had always been a gentleman, and asked if he was a monster, to be terrified, it seemed almost silly that he would find unreasonable and the reluctance of the young man, unless he had reason for the preference Renzo. And this also advancing to questions that were surprised and questioned the blush. Then perceiving that he had left it too will run the tongue behind the recreation of the brain, tried to correct and to interpret in its better than gossip, but could not do that Lucia did not remain an unpleasant surprise, as a confused and frightened. It could just be alone with her mother, if n'aprì with her, but Agnes, as more experienced, dissolved with a few words, all these 'questions, and explained the whole mystery. - You will not be surprise, - he said - when you know the world as I do, you'll see that these are not things to do with it surprise. The men, some more, some less, some for one thing, some for another, all have a little 'checkmate. Should be left to say, especially when s'ha need them, pretend to listen to them seriously, as if to say the right things. Did you hear how he's given me the voice, as if I told some great blunder? I do not I am made the case in point. They are all well. And with all this, thank God, it seems that this lady took a liking took thee, and really wants to protect us. Moreover, if fields, my daughter, and even if t'accaderà of having to do with de 'Gentlemen, I feel, I feel, I feel.
The desire to compel the guardian, the willingness to protect, the thought of a good concept that could yield protection used so holy, a penchant for Lucia, and even some relief in doing good to an innocent child, in and consular assistance to the oppressed, they had really willing to take the lady to the fate of the chest two poor fugitive. At her request, and about him, were housed in the farmer's district adjacent to the cloister, and treated as if they were engaged in the service of the monastery. The mother and daughter were happy together so soon have found a safe haven and honored. They also had much pleasure to be ignored by everyone, but it was not easy in a monastery, especially as there was a man too thoughtful to have news of one of them, and in the soul of which the passion and the first prime-time had also added annoyance of having been notified and is disappointed. And we, leaving women in their recovery, he will return to the palace of the hour in which they were awaiting the outcome of his infamous expedition.
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